...Fuck. I'm sorry. That's all my fucking fault. I've been-- I don't know. Beating myself up about this. You know that I have. That's all it was. Just me, being a complete fucking asshole.

[ Maybe this is a thing that won't go away so easily, especially when he's in a better state of mind- but if she wants this, if she's okay with it, then why do they have to struggle through it so much? ]

Yeah. But- I'm sorry if I get weird about it for a little while. It's not you.