[ he shrugs because that's what's always gotten him through it. shrugging it off makes it easy to move forward. ]

Yeah, but I was used to it so, you know. Rough just becomes normal. The fucked up thing is, she couldn't fucking stand me. Even on the day she died she made sure to remind me how everything bad that had ever happened to her was all my fucking fault- and yet here I am, still fucking crying over her. That's what's fucked up.