[ Jason watches her for a moment before he slides his fingers under her chin, slowly running his thumb just under her lips, even if she's trying to hide her face. ]
[ Jason's still not sure how she sees what she sees when she looks at him, but he knows she's being sincere. Her eyes are so big and captivating, the looks she gives him drawing him in like nothing else. Still, he wants to make sure. ]
[ He doesn't think he'll ever get that cocky confidence back. It's just not in him anymore after everything that's happened. It was all fake confidence anyway, for the most part.]
Of course I have. You knew that I did, didn't you?
[He didn't think it was that much of a surprise, so he looks a little confused by her reaction. They've been dancing around it for a while now, close enough and yet too far away. They've been right on the edge of it and he wonders, if she's so surprised, what she was actually thinking all those times.
He kisses her back though, because how can he not?]
Not for certain, I was hoping that you wanted to but then sometimes I would get worried that I was reading things wrong. It's been a long time since I've had to figure out if someone liked me.
[She explains and when he kisses her back she pulls a hand through his hair a few times, enjoying the texture of his soft curls.]
...Fuck. I'm sorry. That's all my fucking fault. I've been-- I don't know. Beating myself up about this. You know that I have. That's all it was. Just me, being a complete fucking asshole.
[ Maybe this is a thing that won't go away so easily, especially when he's in a better state of mind- but if she wants this, if she's okay with it, then why do they have to struggle through it so much? ]
Yeah. But- I'm sorry if I get weird about it for a little while. It's not you.
I want you. I want you so fucking much. I just wanna be ok with that and not drag you through my shit.
[He says quietly, closing his eyes, leaning into the way her hand feels through his hair. It's good, it's so good. This is what he wants. He just needs to let himself be alright with it.
At first he hesitates at her question, but then he nods.]
Yes. Only if that's what you want. I only ever want what you wanna do.
[ He doesn't say anything for a minute, digesting everything she says and letting the way her fingers run through his hair bring his frazzled mind into focus. ]
Okay.
[he breathes out, then finally opens his eyes and tilts his head up to look at her.]
[ He doesn't quite smile, but the tension in his face lets up a little and he nods against her hand. And then he's quiet again for a long moment, more emotions playing across his face before he asks. ]
[Her fingers brush back and forth against his cheek bone as her eyes dance across his face, and the smile that spreads across her lips is warm, gentle and completely sincere. She nods and places a whisper of a kiss on his lips, it feels like a promise.]
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You're so beautiful.
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So are you.
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Is this really okay?
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Yes. Absolutely.
[She says, her big brown eyes locking onto his.]
I've been wanting to kiss you for a while now.
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So have I.
[He says quietly, looking at her too.]
But I didn't think I should.
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Really? You have?
[She tilts her face to capture his lips in a brief but sweet kiss.]
Well you can and you should. Because I want you to. As often as you want.
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[He didn't think it was that much of a surprise, so he looks a little confused by her reaction. They've been dancing around it for a while now, close enough and yet too far away. They've been right on the edge of it and he wonders, if she's so surprised, what she was actually thinking all those times.
He kisses her back though, because how can he not?]
Okay. I can do that.
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[She explains and when he kisses her back she pulls a hand through his hair a few times, enjoying the texture of his soft curls.]
May I do the same?
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[ Maybe this is a thing that won't go away so easily, especially when he's in a better state of mind- but if she wants this, if she's okay with it, then why do they have to struggle through it so much? ]
Yeah. But- I'm sorry if I get weird about it for a little while. It's not you.
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[She insists, kissing his forehead softly.]
Okay, should I just ignore any weirdness and kiss you more to help work through it?
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[He says quietly, closing his eyes, leaning into the way her hand feels through his hair. It's good, it's so good. This is what he wants. He just needs to let himself be alright with it.
At first he hesitates at her question, but then he nods.]
Yes. Only if that's what you want. I only ever want what you wanna do.
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[She says, gently running her hands through his hair.]
We both want each other so let's be together, we'll help each other through the awkward bits.
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Okay.
[he breathes out, then finally opens his eyes and tilts his head up to look at her.]
Okay.
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Okay, good. Great.
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Together?
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Together.
[ooc: shall we leave this thread here?]
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