[ he takes a very long sip of his wine, pulling a leg up against his chest as he looks at her. he's trying to keep this light now, but it's hard. it's hard, because he really does like her a lot.
maybe if he gets all of this out, he can just leave it. he can leave it in this room and they don't have to talk about it again. ]
You're so... beautiful and wonderful and kind. You let me be myself and you're okay with it. You're okay with me and you listen to my thoughts and my ideas, and you laugh at my jokes instead of roll your eyes or snap at me over them. You're so genuine in a way I wish I could be and when you smile, it really is like the sunrise. So I dunno what it was that made me realize, cause it wasn't just one thing. It all just kinda happened.
And I guess the other day when you hugged me and then Hank walked in... I felt jealous. I felt like... it wasn't fair that he got to say all this shit and act like a jerk and get to be with you. I'm sorry. That was really fucking terrible of me.
[She listens carefully, noting the way that he stresses the fact that part of what he likes so much about her is that she lets him be himself and it makes her wonder more about how he grew up and who he was surrounded by and why they never just let him be the sweet young man she's been getting to know lately.
Her eyes open a bit wider when he mentions being jealous of Hank because it's always the other way around, Hank being endlessly jealous of anything and everything which gets so tiresome. But Jason's jealousy is interesting because it seems to be coming from a place of longing, not insecurity and suspicion.]
No it's okay, it's not terrible. He was acting like a jerk.
[ when he finishes, he takes another long sip of his wine... he doesn't even like this stuff but it's what he needs right now. when he finishes his glass he lifts the bottle and pours himself some more. so much for thinking this was a bad idea. ]
Yeah, but. That doesn't mean I should be wishing it was me who was with you and not him. That's pretty fucking shitty.
[he looks down into his glass, swirling the liquid around.]
I know you're not and I know that you don't hate him either.
[She says and swirls the wine in her glass a bit before taking a long sip. She has a dozen more questions but none of them are appropriate to ask and would only embarrass and upset him so she will keep them to herself.]
So I still fully intend on having a chili dog feast while Dick is away and I hope you'll still join me.
[he'd be curious to know what her questions are, but in the end they probably dont' matter anyway. this is where it all begins and ends, and she doesn't need to say anything more about it. all he can do from here on out is apologize. ]
I'm sure Gar and Rachel have favorites too. Maybe you should ask them.
I'll try to find the place with the best ones. I want you to have the full on best experience.
[he's used to drinking, but his head feels a little fuzzy from the wine. he's not really buzzed yet and he's definitely not drunk. maybe it's just all the stress from tonight too.
does he want her to go?]
No, I don't want you to go. I never want you to go.
Nice. It's like, you gotta eat at least two or three minimum. That's being a true chili dog lover. Bet you can do it.
[because she's cool like that, and she's fun. he has no doubt that she'll go all in.
maybe it's the wine, but he blushes a little when she mentions his music.]
We don't gotta listen to that. It's just the kinda music I listen to when I don't wanna hear the thoughts in my head. Helps drown everything out. Turns it all into a static that I don't gotta think about.
[when he says it out loud it sounds pathetic...but at this point he supposes it doesn't matter. he already seems plenty pathetic in front of her.]
I can probably do three, what's the most you've ever eaten before?
[She asks and then smiles when he blushes, rising up gracefully from the ground to go over to his record collection.]
Makes sense to me, I do the same sometimes. Although my usual drown out my thoughts music is a little less screamy... Can I take a peek at what else you have in here?
[She laughs and throws him an impressed look over her shoulder.]
Seven? That's an awful lot of meat to take in, in one sitting.
[His little self deprecating laugh is noted and filed away with some of the other comments he's made about himself and she starts to flip through his record collection. She knows that a lot of these are hand me downs from Dick and she bursts out into laughter when she sees one in particular.]
Oh you've got to be kidding me!
[She says and pulls out the 'Joe Cocker Greatest Hits' record, waving it at Jason.]
I can't believe you kept this from Dick's old collection. You know he only bought this record for one song in particular right?
[there's a pretty colorful comment on the tip of his tongue, and normally he'd have no problems saying it, but... it's too soon, and he doesn't wanna be the first one to start making comments like that again. maybe if she makes one at some point he'll see that she's really ok with it and not just saying that she is, but until then...]
I kept all of 'em. He didn't really say anything about them to me.
[Jason says as he stands up, going over to look at the record.]
[She had been expecting a come back line about meat and when she doesn't get one she's a little disappointed but she gets it, he might still be feeling too embarrassed by the whole situation to just jump back into innuendos.]
Oh I would have been shocked if he had said anything about this one....he got enough teasing from Hank and Garth when they found out he bought it.
[Carefully she takes the other record Jason had on earlier off the player and slides on the Joe Cocker one, she puts the needle on a track about half way through the album and then bites her lip as the song starts up.]
If he wouldn't say anything then how would I know which one it was?
[he gives her a slightly amused look. he knows she's probably just saying that cause she's probably covering for Dick's lack of telling him anything, but it's fine. he can appreciate that.
he listens to the song, raising his eyebrows.]
I mean, it's not really my kinda music but I can see it. Dick would be into this for fucking sure. Why'd they make fun of him for it, cause this is what he'd consider sex music?
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hahaha me toooo that's why i wanna be sure i have them all in front of me xD
Date: 2022-03-28 11:27 pm (UTC)her question make his cheeks burn, and he lets out a small, surprised laugh, pulling his hand from hers so he can pick up the glass of wine instead. ]
Aw come on, you really gonna put me on the spot like this?
awww <3 also? Jason's crush on Dawn is so adorable
Date: 2022-03-28 11:57 pm (UTC)Absolutely I am.
[She says with a grin as she picks up her wine and takes a sip, looking at him over the rim of her glass.]
it's terrible ;___; lol
Date: 2022-03-29 12:17 am (UTC)maybe if he gets all of this out, he can just leave it. he can leave it in this room and they don't have to talk about it again. ]
You're so... beautiful and wonderful and kind. You let me be myself and you're okay with it. You're okay with me and you listen to my thoughts and my ideas, and you laugh at my jokes instead of roll your eyes or snap at me over them. You're so genuine in a way I wish I could be and when you smile, it really is like the sunrise. So I dunno what it was that made me realize, cause it wasn't just one thing. It all just kinda happened.
And I guess the other day when you hugged me and then Hank walked in... I felt jealous. I felt like... it wasn't fair that he got to say all this shit and act like a jerk and get to be with you. I'm sorry. That was really fucking terrible of me.
noooo it's not terrible, it's sweet, angsty and interesting :)
Date: 2022-03-29 12:51 am (UTC)Her eyes open a bit wider when he mentions being jealous of Hank because it's always the other way around, Hank being endlessly jealous of anything and everything which gets so tiresome. But Jason's jealousy is interesting because it seems to be coming from a place of longing, not insecurity and suspicion.]
No it's okay, it's not terrible. He was acting like a jerk.
[She says, taking another sip of wine.]
it's terrible for his poor heart lol
Date: 2022-03-29 12:57 am (UTC)Yeah, but. That doesn't mean I should be wishing it was me who was with you and not him. That's pretty fucking shitty.
[he looks down into his glass, swirling the liquid around.]
So. Yeah. Does that answer your question?
awww Jason :(
Date: 2022-03-29 03:02 am (UTC)I don't think it's shitty, I think it's a natural response when you like someone and they are with someone else.
[She nods.]
Yes, it does. Thank you for answering it.
:(
Date: 2022-03-29 03:17 am (UTC)I guess so. I don't want you to think I'm like... trying to be an asshole to Hank though.
[he isn't trying to be, but he's still a little angry about it and it still hurts. It hurts cause he likes her so much.]
Ok. Cool.
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Date: 2022-03-29 04:12 am (UTC)[She says and swirls the wine in her glass a bit before taking a long sip. She has a dozen more questions but none of them are appropriate to ask and would only embarrass and upset him so she will keep them to herself.]
So I still fully intend on having a chili dog feast while Dick is away and I hope you'll still join me.
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Date: 2022-03-29 04:20 am (UTC)[he'd be curious to know what her questions are, but in the end they probably dont' matter anyway. this is where it all begins and ends, and she doesn't need to say anything more about it. all he can do from here on out is apologize. ]
I'm sure Gar and Rachel have favorites too. Maybe you should ask them.
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Date: 2022-03-29 04:40 am (UTC)I will, hopefully I can treat each of you to a favorite meal while Dick is gone.
[But Jason was the one she had wanted to treat the most, because she knew how happy it would make him.]
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Date: 2022-03-29 04:48 am (UTC)Okay. We can still have a chili dog feast.
[he finishes his second glass of wine and considers switching to shots instead. maybe just by himself, though.]
Thanks for coming to talk to me. You don't gotta stay if you don't want to though.
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Date: 2022-03-29 05:03 am (UTC)Great. I'm looking forward to it.
[She lifts an eyebrow at him.]
Do...you want me to go?
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Date: 2022-03-29 05:12 am (UTC)[he's used to drinking, but his head feels a little fuzzy from the wine. he's not really buzzed yet and he's definitely not drunk. maybe it's just all the stress from tonight too.
does he want her to go?]
No, I don't want you to go. I never want you to go.
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Date: 2022-03-29 05:25 am (UTC)[His words tug at her heart because they sound so lonely and she nods.]
Okay, I'm happy to hang out. You wanna show me some more of your music? You were playing some pretty loud stuff before, what was it?
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Date: 2022-03-29 02:24 pm (UTC)[because she's cool like that, and she's fun. he has no doubt that she'll go all in.
maybe it's the wine, but he blushes a little when she mentions his music.]
We don't gotta listen to that. It's just the kinda music I listen to when I don't wanna hear the thoughts in my head. Helps drown everything out. Turns it all into a static that I don't gotta think about.
[when he says it out loud it sounds pathetic...but at this point he supposes it doesn't matter. he already seems plenty pathetic in front of her.]
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Date: 2022-03-29 06:23 pm (UTC)[She asks and then smiles when he blushes, rising up gracefully from the ground to go over to his record collection.]
Makes sense to me, I do the same sometimes. Although my usual drown out my thoughts music is a little less screamy...
Can I take a peek at what else you have in here?
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Date: 2022-03-29 06:45 pm (UTC)[he says, so very proudly. when she gets up, he turns his body towards her as she goes to look through the records.]
It takes a lot to drown out the shit in my head.
[he says with a small, self deprecating laugh, then gives her a nod]
Sure.
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Date: 2022-03-29 07:27 pm (UTC)Seven? That's an awful lot of meat to take in, in one sitting.
[His little self deprecating laugh is noted and filed away with some of the other comments he's made about himself and she starts to flip through his record collection. She knows that a lot of these are hand me downs from Dick and she bursts out into laughter when she sees one in particular.]
Oh you've got to be kidding me!
[She says and pulls out the 'Joe Cocker Greatest Hits' record, waving it at Jason.]
I can't believe you kept this from Dick's old collection. You know he only bought this record for one song in particular right?
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Date: 2022-03-29 10:27 pm (UTC)[there's a pretty colorful comment on the tip of his tongue, and normally he'd have no problems saying it, but... it's too soon, and he doesn't wanna be the first one to start making comments like that again. maybe if she makes one at some point he'll see that she's really ok with it and not just saying that she is, but until then...]
I kept all of 'em. He didn't really say anything about them to me.
[Jason says as he stands up, going over to look at the record.]
Which song?
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Date: 2022-03-29 11:10 pm (UTC)Oh I would have been shocked if he had said anything about this one....he got enough teasing from Hank and Garth when they found out he bought it.
[Carefully she takes the other record Jason had on earlier off the player and slides on the Joe Cocker one, she puts the needle on a track about half way through the album and then bites her lip as the song starts up.]
This one.
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Date: 2022-03-29 11:17 pm (UTC)[he gives her a slightly amused look. he knows she's probably just saying that cause she's probably covering for Dick's lack of telling him anything, but it's fine. he can appreciate that.
he listens to the song, raising his eyebrows.]
I mean, it's not really my kinda music but I can see it. Dick would be into this for fucking sure. Why'd they make fun of him for it, cause this is what he'd consider sex music?
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Date: 2022-03-29 11:30 pm (UTC)[She says and then proceeds to have a small giggling fit when Jason mentions the idea of this song being Dick's sex music.]
Oh ow...no this was Dick's secret boogie music. I caught him dancing to it in the kitchen at least twice.
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Date: 2022-03-30 01:23 am (UTC)[he's listened to almost all of these records by now and it seems to fit right in, more or less. Dick does have quite the variety here though.]
...Dancing? You saw Dick dancing?
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Date: 2022-03-30 01:55 am (UTC)[She says and then looks at Jason with a grin.]
Yup. Doing his own little Robin two step twist.
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Date: 2022-03-30 02:00 am (UTC)[Jason laughs softly, dragging his fingers through his hair. it's amusing and kind of nice to think about Dick doing something like that.]
Sounds cute.
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