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[dawn_is_breaking]

What makes you say that?

[alaazul]

What you said the other day about how I've been avoiding you. Maybe I have been.

[dawn_is_breaking]

.....oh.
Oh, okay.

[alaazul]

Not on purpose.
It's just.

Fuck.

It's been a lot.

[dawn_is_breaking]

What's been? Seeing me? Or is something else bothering you?

[alaazul]

Everything.
Seeing you again has only added to it.

[dawn_is_breaking]

I'm sorry.
I'll go.

[alaazul]

That's not what I mean.
Why do you always have to twist everything?

[dawn_is_breaking]

I'm not trying to twist anything, I just.... don't like upsetting you or adding to your stress.

I was hoping that my visit would do the opposite, I wanted to try and treat you to some fun.

[alaazul]

That's the thing, Dawn. I can't just go and have fun. I don't need to and I don't want to. All I want is to be able to handle everything over here. To stay on top of it.

And that makes me a jerk. It makes you think I'm ignoring you or being shitty to you, and maybe I am, but this is who I am. You didn't like it back then, remember? That's why you broke up with me. You don't like it now either.

[dawn_is_breaking]

That's all you want?
Honestly?

[alaazul]

No.
That's not all I want.

[dawn_is_breaking]

What else do you want then?

[alaazul]

You.

[dawn_is_breaking]

.....

what?
Are you being serious?

[alaazul]

Come on, Dawn.
You said it yourself, didn't you?

Haven't I thought about us once you told me you ended things with Hank? That's what you asked me, right?
You already knew then. Don't act so surprised now.

[dawn_is_breaking]

I had hoped but I didn't know, not for sure.



I want you too.

[alaazul]

We can't.

[dawn_is_breaking]

Why not?

[alaazul]

I already told you why, and you know the rest.

[dawn_is_breaking]

Because you have to stay on top of everything and not have fun?

[alaazul]

Yeah. And because you don't like that. You don't like how I am.

The rest is that I need to keep the team together.

[dawn_is_breaking]

That's not true, I didn't like who you were becoming back then. But you're not that anymore.
You're something new.
And so am I.

What do you mean by that?

[alaazul]

There's enough of me that's still the same.

You know what I mean, why do you need me to say it?

[dawn_is_breaking]

Those are the parts I'll always love.

Because I need to know what you mean so I don't twist things up in my mind.