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[nomorefear]

Okay.

[ He says quietly, trying to let himself settle again. It's easy once he starts to concentrate on her hand rubbing his back and maybe some would say that's pathetic, but he knows that's just the bullshit that's been fed to him for so long.

He likes it. He needs it. ]

Do you think it's safe to travel around right now?

[dawn_is_breaking]

[Dawn would never think that wanting and needing comfort is pathetic, it's just human nature and she's happy to give it to Jason.]

I think it's safe enough to start looking into it. [She says, dropping another kiss to the top of his head because she can't help herself.] We don't have to go anywhere till we both feel safe but we can at least start making a list of potential places.

[nomorefear]

[ She wouldn't, because she's a good person, but there are plenty of others that have paved the way. Jason's still trying to figure out how to let himself live, especially now after all he's done. ]

It's weird, I used to want to get out there all the time and do everything I could. But now? Now it's so fucking hard. It feels so fucking hard.

[dawn_is_breaking]

[She gives him a comforting squeeze.]

I know it is, really I do. I didn't leave this apartment for more than an hour at a time when I fist got here but we can start small and build up to it. And we'll have each other there for support.

[nomorefear]

Yeah- yeah you're right. Feels like a lot to think about right now, though. I mean, look at me. I went out like once and got sick as fuck.

[He snorts softly, burying his head further into her chest.]

I can do it. Just maybe not yet. Where would you wanna go, though?

[dawn_is_breaking]

[She chuckles softly when he burrows into her chest and rubs his back gently.]

No, not yet. But when you're feeling better I'd love it if we could go to the Moulin Rouge together.

[nomorefear]

[ He's quiet for a minute, just letting himself lay like that for a little bit before he lifts his head to look at her. ]

That's an actual place?

[dawn_is_breaking]

[She smiles and brushes back his hair from his forehead.]

Yes, they put on huge dance productions with costumes and live music. I've always wanted to go.

[nomorefear]

[ There's a hint of a smile on his face before he tilts his head back down, curling his arms a little tighter around her. ]

I'd go there, sure. Especially if you've always wanted to go.

[dawn_is_breaking]

[She catches his little smile and when he curls his arms around her tighter she grins.]

Really?? I'd love that, I really would.

[nomorefear]

That's the first place we'll go then.

[When they're up for it. This'll encourage him, though. He wants to make her happy. Whatever this is that's blooming between them, he wants it- even though he knows he probably shouldn't have it- sometimes the heart overrides all that bullshit.]

[dawn_is_breaking]

[She's fully aware that he can probably hear the way her heart skips a beat when he tells her that, but she doesn't mind. She wants him to hear how happy and excited she is to go with him to the Moulin Rouge.

Who knows, maybe they can even get a little dressed up for it and go out like a pair of normal people.
Like a regular couple....]

[nomorefear]

[ He does hear her heart beat a little faster at that, and it's thrilling. He never thought he could make anyone ever feel like that again- or feel the same in return. ]

Can I tell you a secret?

[dawn_is_breaking]

Sure.

[She says, smiling as her heart continues to do a few extra skips.]

[nomorefear]

[ Maybe he can blame this all on being sick, but he can definitely feel his fever has gone done significantly since they've been laying here together so he's not sure how much that'll hold up. ]

When I was younger I used to squat in a high school in Gotham. The best place was right above the theater. Spent months living there, watching the theater nerds rehearse musicals. Kinda grew on me.

[dawn_is_breaking]

[If blaming his fever will help make him feel a bit better about telling her personal things about himself she'll let him do it.]

That's actually a really smart choice, a high-school would have access to food, showers and entertainment.

Which was your favorite musical that you saw them rehearse?

[nomorefear]

[ It definitely helps. Personal is so difficult for him. ]

Exactly that, yeah. I should've thought of it sooner. I was such an idiot.

West Side Story. It was so much better than Grease.

But there was another one I liked a lot too. They ended up not rehearsing it, cause there was this whole controversy about prostitutes and burlesque dancers and all that, which got me real curious.

[dawn_is_breaking]

Hey you weren't an idiot, you thought of it eventually which makes you very clever.

Oh West Side Story kicks the crap out of Grease, it's a thousand times better.

Ooh controversial subject matter. It's a shame they weren't allowed to rehearse it....wait which one was it?

[nomorefear]

Eventually is not great when you're trying to survive.

[He says quietly, but she's probably right. He closes his eyes again, but tries to keep talking so he won't fall asleep.]

Shittier ending though. Not shittier- much more realistic I guess. That's why it worked.

Moulin Rouge.

[dawn_is_breaking]

You're right. I'm sorry.

[She says and then nods in agreement.]

Much more realistic. Better songs too.

Oh wow. I was going to guess that but for a second I thought it could also be Dolly Parton's Littlest Whorehouse in Texas.

[nomorefear]

Don't be. It is what it is.

[ Look at him, letting his geek side out. He remembers the last time he told all this to someone and how badly that ended. ]

...Do you remember Rose?

Now that would've been an excellent high school debate.

[dawn_is_breaking]

[She nods and then because he's so nestled in her chest and might not see that she speaks.]

Yes, I remember her.

No kidding, it's still a fun musical movie though. I love Dolly, she's the sweetest thing.

[nomorefear]

I brought her there. To the high school, to where I lived. I told her about my life.

[ Maybe he shouldn't be talking to her about this. Dawn, of all people, when he finally feels like he's opening his heart up to someone else. But- maybe that's why. Past pains and all. ]

I don't actually know that one. Not as much of a musical geek as I think I am, I guess.

[dawn_is_breaking]

How did she respond to all that?

[She asks, unable to hide some of the curiosity in her voice. She doesn't mind him talking about Rose, she knows very little of what went on between them.]

It's not very well known but you know that Whitney Houston song? I Will Always Love You?
That's actually originally a Dolly Parton song, she sings it in that musical.

[nomorefear]

At first she tried to brush it off. Acted like that's what she was doing. But then- I don't know. I thought I could convince her that it was okay. That we were okay. That no matter what it was okay for us to be in love. She wanted to know more about me but in the end she really didn't. All those things everyone blamed me for... it was her. She planted all of it, knew everyone would blame me. I was easy, you know? Bruce, Rose, Crane. They all knew it. They could sink their hooks into my heart and use me the way they wanted to, and no one would care. I fell for it, every single time.

[This isn't the turn of conversation he was going to take, but maybe his loose lips really are a thing right now.]

That's a good song.