nomorefear: (not in anything)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-03-27 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
And I'm not cutting mine, so it would be a mess.

[not that it really matters to him what he looks like. he doesn't look in mirrors anyway. he hates everything about what's looking back at him.

he nods slowly, about to give her an okay, because maybe if they slept like this every once in a while it would be okay. they could get some good sleep and... and... his mouth goes dry when she continues, and he shifts a little, moving an arm from around her so he can slowly push up on his elbow to look down at her.
]

...What do you mean?
nomorefear: (almost there)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-03-27 03:56 am (UTC)(link)
Oh yeah? Why's that?

[maybe he wants to hear it. he remembers a time when he couldn't keep them.

he just blinks at her response for a second, and then there's no way he can stop the heat from moving up his neck. fuck.
]

Oh. Yeah... I mean sure. Yeah, whatever you want.

[FUCK.]
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-03-27 05:06 am (UTC)(link)
What's beautiful?

[he doesn't get it.

he's also really relieved she does laugh, because then he'd just have to roll right out of bed and maybe keep rolling till he gets under it, and just fucking be done with human interactions, because this is stupid, and when the fuck did all of this get so hard?

right. when he died, came back from the dead and let himself be controlled by a fucking psychopath.
]

I'm already sleeping on my side.

[you know. on account of all the bruising.]
nomorefear: (not in anything)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-03-28 04:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh. Thanks.

[she's so into cuddling up with him and nuzzling at him, even with everything they're talking about, and his stupid mishaps and misunderstandings. he's desperately trying to figure this out and not cross any lines here- but Dawn doesn't seem to be worried about that.

he used to be so much better at this. and then he wonders... was he really, though? was he ever good at this, or did he just claim to be?
]

Wait, no. We can lay like that if you want to. I didn't realize you meant now. I wasn't sure what you meant at all, actually.
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-03-28 04:44 pm (UTC)(link)
...Sure. Okay.

[apparently there will be a next time, and he can't say that he isn't looking forward to that already. maybe it'll be less awkward then. he's just so wildly unsure how to act.

the change of subject is a relief either way. at least injuries are more of a familiar topic. he can roll with that.
]

Feeling a little sore, but I think I can stretch it out. Maybe I'll put ice on afterwards. I probably just need to move around a little.
nomorefear: (tired of)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-03-31 07:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Right, yeah. I can give that a try.

[he remembers watching her earlier and he feels kind of bad about it now. the last thing he needs to do is saying anything about it, though, especially not after the whole debacle they just had.]

nomorefear: (ok)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-03-31 10:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I could eat.

[he notices that she doesn't move either, so he stays where he is, not wanting to push her off or anything. he hopes she doesn't feel as awkward as he does.]
nomorefear: (is this the end)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-03-31 11:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[ well. he did think she was flirting with him for a moment, but then she shot that down pretty quick, so whatever flirting she did after that, he has no clue. and then he admonished himself for even thinking for a moment that she'd want to do that with him. him of all people. as if he's not a murderer. as if he wasn't the one to kill Hank.

he's not sure what's going on anymore and he'd really just like to stretch himself out for a little bit. ]


Yeah.

[he says, but he almost feels like he should apologize for it, because she does sound sad, and he's not really sure why.]
nomorefear: (gotham is my home)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-03-31 11:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he's careful as he sits up- because of his back, but also because he's confused too, and she seems upset now. again, he's ready to apologize, but it feels hollow and he doesn't want to make things worse. she doesn't seem upset at him anyway. not when she squeezed him like that before moving away from him.

maybe it's the awkwardness of the situation.

so instead of apologizing he asks: ]


Are you okay?
nomorefear: (is this the beginning)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-04-01 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ he furrows his eyebrows a little, but nods. feeling lots of things- he gets that. he gets it a lot. ]

Okay.

...sorry.

[either way, because he knows in some shape or form it does have to do with him, even if he can't put his finger on it.]

I'll give you some space to think.

[he climbs out of bed carefully, adjusting his shirt as he stands. he does one slow stretch of his arms up as he does so, glancing at her before he heads out of the room so he can go do some stretches on her yoga mat.]
nomorefear: (ch1)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-04-01 02:21 am (UTC)(link)
[ Jason's not really a stretching kind of person. he's never been good at keeping it slow, or breathing, or any of that shit. luckily neither Bruce or Dick ever made him do too much of it because getting him to do so was more trouble than it was worth to them. much like everything else having to do with Jason.

but at the time he was cool with that part, at least.

right now though, he feels like he could use it. he hesitates for a moment, then peels his t-shirt off so he can stretch and move a little, folding it and putting it next to the mat before he starts to do a few stretches he remembers, to try and even his sore body out. ]
Edited (icon haha) 2022-04-01 02:31 (UTC)
nomorefear: (ch2)

SORRY DAWN. sorry not sorry lmao. here have another one while he internally monologues lol

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-04-01 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
[ it hurts when he stretches, especially cause he's been laying around for a while- but it also feels good. his body has been taking a beating for a while now. not just with this truck incident, but back in Gotham too. with Crane, the drugs, Nightwing. The Joker.

it's strange how he hasn't felt like he's been connected to his body since Crane brought him back. it makes sense, but it's still weird. maybe that's why he was more susceptible to the drugs and to all the shit being whispered into his ear. it's hard to maintain yourself when your vessel no longer feels like your own.

and he's always been detached from himself in a way. he's always hated himself in so many ways. Robin over Jason till the bitter end. but now this is all he's left with.

so he takes a moment to just try to feel himself out as he stretches and slowly moves his body in different ways. it hurts, but it's a good kind of pain. it helps him feel a little more connected again.

when he's on the mat, legs stretched out, he turns his body to reach behind him in a stretch and he sees Dawn there, watching him. a lot like he was watching her before. ]

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sorry Dawn ;_;

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