nomorefear: (bwc)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-06-30 12:58 am (UTC)(link)
No, I'm- I'm okay.

[He says in between another cough, but then he finally settles down and looks at her apologetically. ]

Maybe in a little bit. I kinda just wanna lay here with you right now. But maybe you should load up on vitamins before you get sick.
nomorefear: (arms)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-06-30 06:05 am (UTC)(link)
[ There's a lot of anxiety with what they did just now, but his brain is hazy enough to be able to shove it away and he wraps his arms back around her as well, quiet for a minute before he drops a kiss into her hair. ]

Yeah. It does. Feels nicer than...

...than anything's felt in a long time.
nomorefear: (out)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-06-30 06:19 am (UTC)(link)
[ He closes his eyes, breathing slowly and carefully so he doesn't start coughing again, but mostly because he knows he needs to calm his fast beating heart. This was a lot. It was big, and he doesn't even know where to go from here.

In this quiet space they're sharing right now he tries not to think that far. He's so comfortable with her here in his arms. ]
nomorefear: (bwc)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-06-30 06:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ He hopes it's not strange, or too much. He hopes she doesn't feel worried about how he's feeling either.

Eventually with her hand over his heart it slows down to a comfortable pace... and as much as he wants to stay in this moment, he's so comfortable and also so worn out, that eventually he starts to drift off despite it all. ]
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-06-30 07:04 am (UTC)(link)
[ He sleeps... and sleeps and sleeps because for once he's comfortable enough to, but once the meds start wearing off his temperature starts going up again and the nightmares set in.

They're always worse now than they were before. He has a lot more on his conscience. But with Dawn surrounding him it's not so violent and unsettled around him.]
nomorefear: (waking nightmares)

his little nightmare sleeps ;_;

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-07-01 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
[ Her movement jars him awake quickly, and he's not used to waking next to anyone so he's quick to yank himself away from her, trying to back away from the situation, but there's nowhere to go in the small confines of the couch, making him feel trapped, especially with the blankets tucked all around them.

He's just about ready to lunge forward and attack when he realizes where he is and who he's with, and he presses himself against the back of the couch, trying to catch his breath. ]


Dawn?
nomorefear: (and not)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-07-01 04:35 am (UTC)(link)
[ He's thankful for her reflexes because he'd feel absolutely fucking terrible if he had hit her or hurt her in any way. He tenses hard when she puts a hand on his chest, but then he tries to focus on the feel of it to slow his breath. ]

Sorry. Fuck. I'm sorry. I was having a- you know. A nightmare. I feel like I'm burning up.

[And then her words settle into his brain too and yeah, that's what she said, isn't it. His fever is back.]
nomorefear: (brooding hero)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-07-01 07:24 am (UTC)(link)
It's-

[Not okay, he wants to say, but he stops himself once she gets up and hurries away. He takes that moment to try to reel his shit back in, to uncurl from the blankets and himself.

When she comes back he takes the pills from her and drinks them down, then wipes at his forehead, looking at her again. He feels fuzzy in his head, but he remembers what happened before this. There's no way he can forget.
]

Okay... thanks.
nomorefear: (3578478)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-07-01 08:05 am (UTC)(link)
[ He nods, closing his eyes as she goes off into her bedroom, all up until she comes back and then they flutter open again to look at her. He feels pathetic again but she doesn't care about that kind of thing and he knows it, so he lets himself lean into her, putting an arm around her shoulder.

Another nod, and he tries to go for a look of thanks as well, but all he does is lean as she helps him stand up, and he's grateful he has her by his side. ]


Soup is hot.
nomorefear: (peacefully)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-07-01 08:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ He's pretty damn grateful that she's so strong, too. Of course she is, he wouldn't expect any less. Still, he tries to carry his own weight as much as he can until she sits him down on her bed. ]

Yeah- yeah, okay.

[He finally gives in, closing his eyes as he lays down.]

I'm good like this. All I really want is to lay here with you. That's it.

[It tumbles out of his mouth before he can stop himself, but he doesn't really think too hard about that either.]
nomorefear: (3578478-5)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-07-02 07:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[ As fearfully as he woke up not being used to someone laying beside him, it's the opposite now as he moves over to make room for her. As soon as she gets into bed with him and gathers him up, he slides his arms around her waist, pressing his head against her chest and closes his eyes again.

He feels terrible but he feels good, and it's that latter that doesn't usually get to happen, so he welcomes it now. ]


Thanks.
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-07-02 11:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Even with her arms around him, once he closes his eyes again and lets himself settle into it once again, he can feel his heart rate start to pick up. Still too many images behind his eyes. ]

I don't wanna fall back asleep though. I wanna try to stay awake.
nomorefear: (in between)

[personal profile] nomorefear 2022-07-03 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
Okay.

[ He says quietly, trying to let himself settle again. It's easy once he starts to concentrate on her hand rubbing his back and maybe some would say that's pathetic, but he knows that's just the bullshit that's been fed to him for so long.

He likes it. He needs it. ]


Do you think it's safe to travel around right now?

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