[The urgency in which he deepens the kiss sends another shiver down her spine and she responds by opening her mouth more and pushing her tongue against his feverishly, keeping her one hand in his hair while the other goes around his neck, using it has leverage to help rock her hips down against his more.]
Jason...
[She breathes against his lips when she finally has to break the kiss, her heart pounding and her whole body feeling alive with yearning.]
[ he likes her hand in his hair. he likes it a lot, and maybe that's what did it. well that, and that fact that he likes her so fucking much, and he'd do anything to make her feel good.
she rocks her hips down and he meets her half way as he rolls his hips up, so hard and leaking in his pants by now.
but then she says his name, and it rings out against their quiet, needy sounds. even just a whisper of it and he pulls back to takes a breath, looking at her.]
Dawn...
[ he should stop, they should stop. he's not like this and he never has been, but holy fuck he wants more. and so he leans his head up, ready to kiss her again if she wants to. he rolls his hips more and more, hands splayed out and sliding up her back, under her shirt, bringing her closer again. ]
[When he rolls his hips up, grinding his hardness against her, she moans and feels herself start to grow wet and flushed. Her body wants him, badly, and when he pulls back to look at her she does the same. Looking into his eyes and seeing every ounce of his desire and longing.]
I...
[She starts to say but it gets lost when he leans his head up, his lips brushing hers and she gives in again, kissing him hard as she rocks against him. The hand in his hair tugging a little as she tries to get closer to him. He feels so good and intoxicatingly new and already she can feel how nice their bodies fit together.]
[ fuck, he can feel her heat so intensely. it's all around him, pulling him in. he wants her so goddamn badly, and when he sees that in her eyes as well, it's hard to do anything else but give into it.
he should stop. she should stop. but then she's kissing him hard again and he moans into it, but he hesitates when his fingers slide up to the clasp of her bra. they're still at this point when they can pull back, aren't they? but he keeps kissing her despite it all. ]
[He tastes so sweet and she plunges her tongue into his mouth like a bee tasting nectar, his moan getting lost against her lips. She feels his fingers slide up to her bra and she sighs, tugging at his hair again and nodding eagerly. She wants to feel his hands on all of her skin and she's about to pull off her sweater when there's a sudden knock on Jason's door.]
Jason? You up?
Dawn freezes, her eyes going wide when she hears Dick's voice. She pulls back, looking at Jason.
[ fuck, her touch feels like fire on his skin. her kiss is so enveloping, pulling him in deep. when she nods, he unhooks her bra, and then there's that knock, freezing him up in an instant as their kiss breaks.
at least he doesn't try to scramble away cause that would be so fucking immature. but he's tense enough as it is, breathing heavily when he hears Dick's voice filtering through his door. did they lock it? fuck he doesn't remember if he locked it. probably not because he didn't want her to feel weird about being in here with him.
fuck.
if he doesn't answer, Dick might be nosy and try to pop his head in, so he tries to steady his voice. ]
[Dawn has the same sudden worry, is Dick going to open the door? If he does is she fast enough to dive to the ground and roll under Jason's bed?
She pulls back even more, almost readying herself for such a move when Jason responds and she has to bite her lip in an effort to not burst into laughter.
There's a pause and she hears Dick sigh, probably trying to keep himself from sounding frustrated at Jason.]
Okay, sure. Sorry, I'll be in the training room if you change your mind.
[his heart is thudding hard in his chest. does Dick have to be so slow about getting the fuck out of here?
Dawn looks about ready to bolt, but also amused and he's glad she's feeling that way, because suddenly this feels like the biggest fuck up he's ever created. holy shit. Dick gives up easily, which is at least something Jason's used to when it comes to him, but for once he's grateful for it.]
Yeah whatever, bye.
[it's rude and he knows it, but he needs to take care of it, and when Dick finally heads off, Jason lets out a relieved breath and flops his tense shoulders back on the bed, fingers dragging harshly through his hair.]
[Jason's reply is so rude and yet so utterly Jason that she's pretty sure that Dick won't find it suspicious, which is a good thing, it means they managed to avoid getting caught this time.
This time?? She stops herself from thinking too much about that train of thought and instead let's out a long shakey breath.]
Jesus I thought I was going to have a heart attack....
[She admits softly, but whether she means that in regards to Dick walking in or Jason touching her it isn't clear.]
[he doesn't assume she means him touching her and kissing her would give her a heart attack, because that would be a poor choice of words... but now that they've parted, the guilt starts setting in, and he can't fucking believe they're doing this. They did this.
when he's done pulling his hair out he pushes up on his elbows, figuring she'll probably move off if him, get her stuff and bolt. now it feels awkward. everything feels awkward and somehow he's still fucking hard.
he tries to shift a little so he isn't weirdly pressing up against her. ]
[Dawn's own guilt is setting in pretty fast as well but she's still also very aware of every bit of his body, part of her savoring the feeling of his hardness for one last moment before he shifts away.
She knows she should get off him but she finds it hard to break that connection, especially when she can see the look in his eyes and the fact that he immediately starts apologizing.]
[his lips feel wonderfully swollen, and his body is still tingling from head to toe. he wishes his body would cooperate with his brain, but Dawn is still on top of him and it's hard for anything of his to settle down.
he looks at her, eyebrows furrowing for a moment before he looks away.]
No... you shouldn't. Cause I don't wanna stop, and that's fucked up.
[His words send a little thrill through her body, they shouldn't, but they do, and she has to fight with herself to not just start rocking against him again.]
No.
[She sighs, reaching up behind her shirt and doing back up her bra before rolling off him.]
What's fucked is I know exactly how you feel.
[She admits, landing next to him on her side with a fwump.]
[it feels gutrenchingly terrible when she moves off of him, and he suddenly feels incredibly embarrassed along with that guilt. what the fuck is wrong with him?
he pushes himself to sit up all the way, then moves so his legs hang off the bed, his back to her as he presses the heels of his palms into his eyes, willing himself to calm down and the ache in his pants to go away.]
Fuck...fuck. You were hurting and I was just here to be your fucking friend and I'm such a goddamn asshole. Fuck.
[ in the wrong here. it sounds so shitty. so fucked up, like he's a mistake. like all of this is, and yeah.... it is. he fucked up and yeah okay, maybe she did too- but he should have stopped her. he could have, but he wanted her so badly. he still does.
her hand against his back feels like fire, and yet he doesn't flinch away. he isn't going to let her think this is her fault, though. ]
I didn't stop you. I fucking should have, but I didn't. I'm not... Hank. You're with Hank.
[and he's nothing in this, he never will be. it's so fucked up that he put himself in the middle of this.]
[Her insides feel tight and knotted up and she feels like the world's worst human being because what is she doing?! She's cheating on her partner of three and a half years with a guy who is about ten years younger than she is and who is someone she thought she just wanted as a friend.]
Jason, no. None of this is on you, okay? You told me that you liked me and then I proceed to.....
[She sighs and runs both her hands through her hair.]
I took advantage of you. And I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean for it to happen but you feel...
[ Jason shakes his head, and when he finally feels like he can stand up without an embarrassing boner, he does, crossing his arms in front of himself. they're both putting space between each other now, and he hates it. he hates how close to her he still wants to be. ]
I feel what?
[why is he even asking? it's not like it matters. whatever he feels like, he's not Hank and he knows she'll never be with him.]
Look, we can just... we can just forget this. Nothing happened, ok? We both just fucked up and you don't have to say shit about it. I'm not gonna say anything to anyone.
[She can feel that space between them and it feels awful and yet it feels like the only option because if she gets close to him again she'll want to touch him, hold him.]
You feel good.
[She says softly, her arms wrapping around herself under her breasts. Nothing happened. She wants to agree but she knows that's wrong, if it was nothing she wouldn't feel so awful, so mixed up and confused.]
.....if we do that do you want me to leave you alone?
[ this feels so fucked up. he feels so fucked up. dirty and used, but at the same time like he's the one who pushed her into this. he did this. if he would have just pulled away and said no to start with, it never would have happened. ]
I know you don't really think that. You got in a fight with Hank and you just wanted anything else that isn't him to feel good, and I just let that fucking happen. I'm the one who took advantage of you.
[mistakes happen, and then there's this. he so desperately wishes it hadn't been a mistake for once in his life, though, but that's all it ever is.]
Yeah, probably. I mean that's what we should do, right? I'll give you space, we'll forget this ever happened. I'm good at that, it's cool.
[She can feel everything crumbling around her, the nice connection they had been creating is now broken and it's her fault. His willingness to take the blame, all because he likes her, makes her feel manipulative and shitty and she bows her head. Letting her hair fall forward into her face to try and cover up the fact that she feels close to tears.]
That's not true.
[She whispers.]
It's not cool, I've hurt you and I've wrecked everything. I never wanted to do that.
[ she says it's not true but he knows that it is, and she shouldn't have to fuck up the rest of her life cause of this. cause of him.
she looks so upset and he wants nothing more than to go comfort her, but he can't. he shouldn't. what he should do is leave her the fuck alone and then probably leave the Tower altogether cause of what a shitty person he is.
he doesn't know what to say, and the lump in his throat is starting to get too overwhelming. ]
I'm gonna go, okay? I think you'd be better off if I got outta here. Look, don't fuck up your life cause of me. Don't mess up what you've got with Hank and the others. That's the thing you don't wanna wreck, alright? I'm absolutely nothing in this equation. People make mistakes. You're okay.
No, Jason. Stop. I'm not going to make you leave your own room, I'll leave.
[She says and moves hurriedly to the door, she knows she has to leave and do it quickly or else she's going to start crying and that wouldn't be fair for him to see. But before she leaves she turns to him, her hand on the door handle.]
You're not nothing.
What just happened.... I don't want to call it a mistake because you were being kind to me and I appreciate that.
But I need to think about some stuff that...I've needed to think about for a while now. I'm going to give you some space but that doesn't mean I'm upset or mad at you okay?
[ he tenses up hard because he wants to move forward to stop her, but he has to stop himself instead. he can't stop her. he shouldn't. she should get as far away from him as fucking possible, before this explodes into something she wont be able to walk away from like this.
he doesn't think he was being kind to her at all, but he doesn't want to argue with her. he doesn't want to say anything, he's so fucking ashamed of himself. he looks down, curling his hands into fists under his crossed arms and gives her a nod.]
[Opening the door and walking through it is the toughest part, there's a full moment where she wants to just turn around and instead go over to him and hug him because he looks so hurt, but once she's forced herself to get started she is able to leave.
She goes downstairs to the zen garden, the area where she's probably going to wind up sleeping tonight, and has a seat on the floor. It's quiet and still, the opposite of what her head, heart and soul are right now and after a few moments of sitting in silence she dips her head down and lets the tears come.]
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Date: 2022-04-11 02:36 am (UTC)Jason...
[She breathes against his lips when she finally has to break the kiss, her heart pounding and her whole body feeling alive with yearning.]
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Date: 2022-04-11 02:58 am (UTC)she rocks her hips down and he meets her half way as he rolls his hips up, so hard and leaking in his pants by now.
but then she says his name, and it rings out against their quiet, needy sounds. even just a whisper of it and he pulls back to takes a breath, looking at her.]
Dawn...
[ he should stop, they should stop. he's not like this and he never has been, but holy fuck he wants more. and so he leans his head up, ready to kiss her again if she wants to. he rolls his hips more and more, hands splayed out and sliding up her back, under her shirt, bringing her closer again. ]
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Date: 2022-04-11 03:55 am (UTC)I...
[She starts to say but it gets lost when he leans his head up, his lips brushing hers and she gives in again, kissing him hard as she rocks against him. The hand in his hair tugging a little as she tries to get closer to him. He feels so good and intoxicatingly new and already she can feel how nice their bodies fit together.]
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Date: 2022-04-14 02:16 am (UTC)he should stop. she should stop. but then she's kissing him hard again and he moans into it, but he hesitates when his fingers slide up to the clasp of her bra. they're still at this point when they can pull back, aren't they? but he keeps kissing her despite it all. ]
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Date: 2022-04-14 02:45 am (UTC)Jason? You up?
Dawn freezes, her eyes going wide when she hears Dick's voice. She pulls back, looking at Jason.
I was gonna do some training, wanna join?
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Date: 2022-04-14 03:00 am (UTC)at least he doesn't try to scramble away cause that would be so fucking immature. but he's tense enough as it is, breathing heavily when he hears Dick's voice filtering through his door. did they lock it? fuck he doesn't remember if he locked it. probably not because he didn't want her to feel weird about being in here with him.
fuck.
if he doesn't answer, Dick might be nosy and try to pop his head in, so he tries to steady his voice. ]
Not right now, Dickhead. I'm fucking busy!
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Date: 2022-04-14 03:19 am (UTC)She pulls back even more, almost readying herself for such a move when Jason responds and she has to bite her lip in an effort to not burst into laughter.
There's a pause and she hears Dick sigh, probably trying to keep himself from sounding frustrated at Jason.]
Okay, sure. Sorry, I'll be in the training room if you change your mind.
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Date: 2022-04-14 03:37 am (UTC)Dawn looks about ready to bolt, but also amused and he's glad she's feeling that way, because suddenly this feels like the biggest fuck up he's ever created. holy shit. Dick gives up easily, which is at least something Jason's used to when it comes to him, but for once he's grateful for it.]
Yeah whatever, bye.
[it's rude and he knows it, but he needs to take care of it, and when Dick finally heads off, Jason lets out a relieved breath and flops his tense shoulders back on the bed, fingers dragging harshly through his hair.]
Fuck.
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Date: 2022-04-14 03:54 am (UTC)This time??
She stops herself from thinking too much about that train of thought and instead let's out a long shakey breath.]
Jesus I thought I was going to have a heart attack....
[She admits softly, but whether she means that in regards to Dick walking in or Jason touching her it isn't clear.]
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Date: 2022-04-14 04:04 am (UTC)when he's done pulling his hair out he pushes up on his elbows, figuring she'll probably move off if him, get her stuff and bolt. now it feels awkward. everything feels awkward and somehow he's still fucking hard.
he tries to shift a little so he isn't weirdly pressing up against her. ]
I'm sorry.
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Date: 2022-04-14 04:14 am (UTC)She knows she should get off him but she finds it hard to break that connection, especially when she can see the look in his eyes and the fact that he immediately starts apologizing.]
Jason, no. I'm the one who should apologize.
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Date: 2022-04-14 11:38 am (UTC)he looks at her, eyebrows furrowing for a moment before he looks away.]
No... you shouldn't. Cause I don't wanna stop, and that's fucked up.
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Date: 2022-04-14 03:39 pm (UTC)No.
[She sighs, reaching up behind her shirt and doing back up her bra before rolling off him.]
What's fucked is I know exactly how you feel.
[She admits, landing next to him on her side with a fwump.]
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Date: 2022-04-14 07:34 pm (UTC)he pushes himself to sit up all the way, then moves so his legs hang off the bed, his back to her as he presses the heels of his palms into his eyes, willing himself to calm down and the ache in his pants to go away.]
Fuck...fuck. You were hurting and I was just here to be your fucking friend and I'm such a goddamn asshole. Fuck.
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Date: 2022-04-14 08:12 pm (UTC)[She says and sits up as well, curling her long legs up to one side and reaching out to touch his back gently.]
You're not an asshole. I am. I'm the one who climbed on top of you.
I'm in the wrong here, not you.
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Date: 2022-04-14 11:15 pm (UTC)her hand against his back feels like fire, and yet he doesn't flinch away. he isn't going to let her think this is her fault, though. ]
I didn't stop you. I fucking should have, but I didn't. I'm not... Hank. You're with Hank.
[and he's nothing in this, he never will be. it's so fucked up that he put himself in the middle of this.]
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Date: 2022-04-14 11:37 pm (UTC)Jason, no. None of this is on you, okay? You told me that you liked me and then I proceed to.....
[She sighs and runs both her hands through her hair.]
I took advantage of you. And I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean for it to happen but you feel...
[She inhales sharply and gets up off his bed.]
Fuck.
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Date: 2022-04-14 11:49 pm (UTC)I feel what?
[why is he even asking? it's not like it matters. whatever he feels like, he's not Hank and he knows she'll never be with him.]
Look, we can just... we can just forget this. Nothing happened, ok? We both just fucked up and you don't have to say shit about it. I'm not gonna say anything to anyone.
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Date: 2022-04-15 12:22 am (UTC)You feel good.
[She says softly, her arms wrapping around herself under her breasts.
Nothing happened.
She wants to agree but she knows that's wrong, if it was nothing she wouldn't feel so awful, so mixed up and confused.]
.....if we do that do you want me to leave you alone?
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Date: 2022-04-15 12:37 am (UTC)I know you don't really think that. You got in a fight with Hank and you just wanted anything else that isn't him to feel good, and I just let that fucking happen. I'm the one who took advantage of you.
[mistakes happen, and then there's this. he so desperately wishes it hadn't been a mistake for once in his life, though, but that's all it ever is.]
Yeah, probably. I mean that's what we should do, right? I'll give you space, we'll forget this ever happened. I'm good at that, it's cool.
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Date: 2022-04-15 01:02 am (UTC)That's not true.
[She whispers.]
It's not cool, I've hurt you and I've wrecked everything. I never wanted to do that.
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Date: 2022-04-15 01:25 am (UTC)she looks so upset and he wants nothing more than to go comfort her, but he can't. he shouldn't. what he should do is leave her the fuck alone and then probably leave the Tower altogether cause of what a shitty person he is.
he doesn't know what to say, and the lump in his throat is starting to get too overwhelming. ]
I'm gonna go, okay? I think you'd be better off if I got outta here. Look, don't fuck up your life cause of me. Don't mess up what you've got with Hank and the others. That's the thing you don't wanna wreck, alright? I'm absolutely nothing in this equation. People make mistakes. You're okay.
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Date: 2022-04-15 01:47 am (UTC)[She says and moves hurriedly to the door, she knows she has to leave and do it quickly or else she's going to start crying and that wouldn't be fair for him to see. But before she leaves she turns to him, her hand on the door handle.]
You're not nothing.
What just happened.... I don't want to call it a mistake because you were being kind to me and I appreciate that.
But I need to think about some stuff that...I've needed to think about for a while now. I'm going to give you some space but that doesn't mean I'm upset or mad at you okay?
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Date: 2022-04-15 02:11 am (UTC)he doesn't think he was being kind to her at all, but he doesn't want to argue with her. he doesn't want to say anything, he's so fucking ashamed of himself. he looks down, curling his hands into fists under his crossed arms and gives her a nod.]
Okay.
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Date: 2022-04-15 02:26 am (UTC)She goes downstairs to the zen garden, the area where she's probably going to wind up sleeping tonight, and has a seat on the floor. It's quiet and still, the opposite of what her head, heart and soul are right now and after a few moments of sitting in silence she dips her head down and lets the tears come.]
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