[it all feels really good, like something he's been waiting so long for, and for once it doesn't feel like all his guilt, all those insecurities are in the way. maybe it's because he's sick -but that's the thing now. it still doesn't work.
god he wants to do badly though, especially with her asking him the way that she is.]
[Her heart is beating so hard that it almost feels like it's trying to escape her chest and when he finally presses his lips against hers she makes a soft sound as her entire body is flooded with relief and joy. She kisses him back, softly at first but then with a little more need. His lips are incredibly soft and she sighs and moves her hand up into his hair, pulling her fingers through his curls as she sinks down against him.]
[ Jason feels oddly calm. warm, calm, drawn into the kiss when she kisses him back with that soft, happy sound. this has been building for so long now, even if he's been trying not to address it, and that makes it all that much more intense.
it's been so long since he's been kissed like this, held like this. the last person who did so betrayed him, and he swore he'd never get swept up again- but god is it hard not to, when Dawn stars kissing him deeper and he parts his lips to open up for her so easily. the hand sliding through his curls pulls a soft sound from him as well, and while his one hand is still touching her face, his other wraps around her, fingers splayed out as they slide up her back. ]
[There have been so many nights recently where she's thought about this, about him, and what it would feel like to be with him without worrying about upsetting the delicate balance they've created between them. It felt like they were perpetually walking along a tightrope that was made up of several different worries; if it was right or wrong, if they would mess it all up, if it was a disgrace to Hank's memory.
But now, as she eagerly opens her own mouth to him, she realizes that none of that matters and that neither of them should be stuck living in that kind of fear. Not again, not after what happened to both of them. Neither of them should be afraid to love.]
Jason....
[She breathes, pulling back slightly to catch her breath as she suddenly feels breathless and almost dizzy with how much she is feeling at the moment.]
[ those concerns and worries are a big deal. they've been there since the moment Jason realized there might be something else here between them. all the panic and the guilt has felt suffocating to the point where it's felt infinitely safer to push it all away.
the thing is, Jason's always been like that, though. and in the end his heart tends to win out over his head. maybe all he needed was a spark. her words, the look in her eyes. the reassurance that he isn't a monster. ]
Dawn.
[he says as he breathes in her breaths, his fingers sliding up into her hair. the thing is, he doesn't really want to talk. he doesn't want there to be any room to think about this and to let all the other shit seep in.]
[She sighs again as his hand slides up into her hair and then nods, shifting her body so she can move even closer to him. She's definitely going to get sick from all this but she doesn't care, she wants this, wants him.]
Happily.
[She whispers and moves her mouth back against his, kissing him softly but passionately.]
[ he wishes he weren't sick, and he'll definitely feel intensely guilty about it later, but for now it feels worth it. they'll take care of each other, like she said, because it's what they do. he just wishes it wouldn't have happened right now out of all the times it could have happened.
or maybe this is the only time it could have, because he feels a little less like the person he is now, and more like just a regular guy, sick on the couch, his head all fuzzy and mellowed out.
maybe it isn't fair that he doesn't want to talk or think, but she seems perfectly content with her lips pressed back against his as well, and again he parts his lips to sweep his tongue in against hers, kissing her slow and deep, because he finally gets to. ]
[She doesn't mind that he doesn't want to talk, it seems that lately they've talked about so many serious things that it's nice to be able to just relax into one another. To touch and feel and speak to one another without using words.
When he sweeps his tongue against hers she moans and tilts her head slightly, allowing him to deepen the kiss even more. She keeps the one hand buried in his curls, tugging at them slightly, while her other hand goes around to caress his back and shoulders. Feeling the curve and swell of his muscles, god he's just so wonderful feeling...]
[ they talk a lot. they really do. and then they have all the moments in between that Jason has found just as comforting. he's not sure what category this'll fall into, but he doesn't want to freak out about it now. he doesn't want to overthink it. he simply wants to be in this moment with her now, enjoying what he's held himself back from for weeks now, it seems.
her hands feel good on him- in his hair, sliding over his skin. he wants to lay here kissing her like this and holding her against him for as long as he can. ]
[She keeps kissing him for as long as she can until she finally has to pull back for a moment to catch her breath, she tilts her head down and nuzzles his neck, wanting and needing to keep this connection going. She can feel her body being flooded with a dozen different emotions but all of them are wonderful and make her feel incredibly warm.]
Oh Jason...you feel so lovely.
[She sighs and uses the arm around his back and shoulders to pull herself tighter against him.]
[ He doesn't want to stop kissing her, but he needs to take a breath too. He feels dizzy from the kiss, but also from the way he's been feeling too, and yet it's fine, he feels good. His body is so desperate for this kind of touch. He doesn't want to let go. ]
You feel incredible.
[He says so quietly, eyes closing as she draws herself closer to him and nuzzles into his neck. His arms slide around her as tightly as they can, just holding her like this as if she might somehow drift away now that they've stopped kissing.]
[Incredible. Yes that's really the word to describe all this and she makes a soft pleased sound when he slides his strong arms around her and holds her tightly. It feels so good to have him hold her like this at last, they've hugged but this is an embrace, full of warm comfort but also desire and she squeezes him back.]
[ That soft, pleased sound Dawn makes blossoms inside of him, and no matter how sick he may be, he knows this is good. It's better than anything he's felt in a long time.
but then of course he starts coughing and he tries to turn away from her so he doesn't end up coughing into her neck. ]
[She says, smiling softly and loosening her grip so he can turn away and cough.] Do you need another lozenge? I can also make you some throat coat tea if you want.
[She waits for his coughing to subside and then shifts her body down a bit so she can rest her head in the hollow of his neck, wrapping an arm around his waist.]
I kinda want to lay here with you right now, too. [She pauses and gives him a small squeeze.] This feels really nice.
[ There's a lot of anxiety with what they did just now, but his brain is hazy enough to be able to shove it away and he wraps his arms back around her as well, quiet for a minute before he drops a kiss into her hair. ]
[She smiles and nuzzles his neck gently, feeling relieved and happy to hear that he thinks it feels nice as well.]
Good. I'm glad.
[She goes quiet but it's a comfortable kind of silence and she just lays there, enjoying the feeling of being in his arms and listening to his heart beat.]
[ He closes his eyes, breathing slowly and carefully so he doesn't start coughing again, but mostly because he knows he needs to calm his fast beating heart. This was a lot. It was big, and he doesn't even know where to go from here.
In this quiet space they're sharing right now he tries not to think that far. He's so comfortable with her here in his arms. ]
[She can hear that his heart is beating fast and she slides one of her hands onto his chest, placing it over his heart so she can feel it as well. It feels like it's been so long since she's felt someone's heart beat this fast because of her and it sends a little thrill down her spine.]
[ He hopes it's not strange, or too much. He hopes she doesn't feel worried about how he's feeling either.
Eventually with her hand over his heart it slows down to a comfortable pace... and as much as he wants to stay in this moment, he's so comfortable and also so worn out, that eventually he starts to drift off despite it all. ]
[She can feel when he starts to drift off towards sleep, his breathing becoming deeper and more even and she smiles to herself and stays exactly where she is. She's perfectly happy to stay in his arms while he sleeps, he needs lots of rest, after all he's sick. She'll make him tea when he wakes up and while she's thinking about what she could make him for dinner she also falls asleep.]
[ He sleeps... and sleeps and sleeps because for once he's comfortable enough to, but once the meds start wearing off his temperature starts going up again and the nightmares set in.
They're always worse now than they were before. He has a lot more on his conscience. But with Dawn surrounding him it's not so violent and unsettled around him.]
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Date: 2022-05-25 07:05 pm (UTC)god he wants to do badly though, especially with her asking him the way that she is.]
You'll get sick. I don't want you to get sick.
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Date: 2022-05-25 07:19 pm (UTC)[She says, her tone almost pleading and she reaches up to touch his cheek with her palm.]
If I get sick you can take care of me, we'll take care of each other like we have been...I just....please? I want you to kiss me so badly.
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Date: 2022-05-25 07:38 pm (UTC)and the way she asks? how can he resist that. he doesn't want to anymore.
he lets out a soft breath as he pulls her down closer against him, leaning up so he can press his lips against hers in a kiss.]
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Date: 2022-05-25 08:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-05-25 11:33 pm (UTC)it's been so long since he's been kissed like this, held like this. the last person who did so betrayed him, and he swore he'd never get swept up again- but god is it hard not to, when Dawn stars kissing him deeper and he parts his lips to open up for her so easily. the hand sliding through his curls pulls a soft sound from him as well, and while his one hand is still touching her face, his other wraps around her, fingers splayed out as they slide up her back. ]
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Date: 2022-05-26 12:05 am (UTC)It felt like they were perpetually walking along a tightrope that was made up of several different worries; if it was right or wrong, if they would mess it all up, if it was a disgrace to Hank's memory.
But now, as she eagerly opens her own mouth to him, she realizes that none of that matters and that neither of them should be stuck living in that kind of fear. Not again, not after what happened to both of them.
Neither of them should be afraid to love.]
Jason....
[She breathes, pulling back slightly to catch her breath as she suddenly feels breathless and almost dizzy with how much she is feeling at the moment.]
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Date: 2022-05-26 12:37 am (UTC)the thing is, Jason's always been like that, though. and in the end his heart tends to win out over his head. maybe all he needed was a spark. her words, the look in her eyes. the reassurance that he isn't a monster. ]
Dawn.
[he says as he breathes in her breaths, his fingers sliding up into her hair. the thing is, he doesn't really want to talk. he doesn't want there to be any room to think about this and to let all the other shit seep in.]
Just kiss me, okay?
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Date: 2022-05-26 12:58 am (UTC)Happily.
[She whispers and moves her mouth back against his, kissing him softly but passionately.]
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Date: 2022-05-26 01:07 am (UTC)or maybe this is the only time it could have, because he feels a little less like the person he is now, and more like just a regular guy, sick on the couch, his head all fuzzy and mellowed out.
maybe it isn't fair that he doesn't want to talk or think, but she seems perfectly content with her lips pressed back against his as well, and again he parts his lips to sweep his tongue in against hers, kissing her slow and deep, because he finally gets to. ]
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Date: 2022-05-26 02:31 am (UTC)When he sweeps his tongue against hers she moans and tilts her head slightly, allowing him to deepen the kiss even more. She keeps the one hand buried in his curls, tugging at them slightly, while her other hand goes around to caress his back and shoulders. Feeling the curve and swell of his muscles, god he's just so wonderful feeling...]
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Date: 2022-05-30 12:49 am (UTC)her hands feel good on him- in his hair, sliding over his skin. he wants to lay here kissing her like this and holding her against him for as long as he can. ]
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Date: 2022-05-30 02:41 am (UTC)Oh Jason...you feel so lovely.
[She sighs and uses the arm around his back and shoulders to pull herself tighter against him.]
...casually slides back in here one month later D: (sorry!)
Date: 2022-06-29 04:28 am (UTC)You feel incredible.
[He says so quietly, eyes closing as she draws herself closer to him and nuzzles into his neck. His arms slide around her as tightly as they can, just holding her like this as if she might somehow drift away now that they've stopped kissing.]
no worries :) hope everything is okay!
Date: 2022-06-29 05:05 am (UTC)Yes that's really the word to describe all this and she makes a soft pleased sound when he slides his strong arms around her and holds her tightly. It feels so good to have him hold her like this at last, they've hugged but this is an embrace, full of warm comfort but also desire and she squeezes him back.]
yeah, everything's good!
Date: 2022-06-29 07:38 am (UTC)but then of course he starts coughing and he tries to turn away from her so he doesn't end up coughing into her neck. ]
Fuck... sorry.
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Date: 2022-06-29 04:46 pm (UTC)[She says, smiling softly and loosening her grip so he can turn away and cough.] Do you need another lozenge? I can also make you some throat coat tea if you want.
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Date: 2022-06-30 12:58 am (UTC)[He says in between another cough, but then he finally settles down and looks at her apologetically. ]
Maybe in a little bit. I kinda just wanna lay here with you right now. But maybe you should load up on vitamins before you get sick.
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Date: 2022-06-30 03:05 am (UTC)I kinda want to lay here with you right now, too. [She pauses and gives him a small squeeze.] This feels really nice.
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Date: 2022-06-30 06:05 am (UTC)Yeah. It does. Feels nicer than...
...than anything's felt in a long time.
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Date: 2022-06-30 06:15 am (UTC)Good. I'm glad.
[She goes quiet but it's a comfortable kind of silence and she just lays there, enjoying the feeling of being in his arms and listening to his heart beat.]
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Date: 2022-06-30 06:19 am (UTC)In this quiet space they're sharing right now he tries not to think that far. He's so comfortable with her here in his arms. ]
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Date: 2022-06-30 06:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-06-30 06:42 am (UTC)Eventually with her hand over his heart it slows down to a comfortable pace... and as much as he wants to stay in this moment, he's so comfortable and also so worn out, that eventually he starts to drift off despite it all. ]
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Date: 2022-06-30 06:49 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-06-30 07:04 am (UTC)They're always worse now than they were before. He has a lot more on his conscience. But with Dawn surrounding him it's not so violent and unsettled around him.]
aww sleepy icon, so cute <3
From:his little nightmare sleeps ;_;
From:poor bb :*(
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